Thread in My Veins

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From clarity to collapse - a descent into addiction through the addict's own unraveling voice.


The First Hit (Euphoria)


I met her in a whisper,


Silver tongue and glassy grace.


She slid beneath my skin like prayer


And kissed me into space.




No thunder in the needle,


Just a hum beneath the skin, 


Soft enough to make me weep,


Strong enough to let her in.




The world turned velvet.


My bones turned light.


For once in my life,


Everything felt right.




The Want Becomes Need (Cracks Begin)




It was just once.


Then once again.


Then once became


The way I breathe.




Lost time. Lost taste.


Lost little things.


A memory here,


A wedding ring.




She took my days in pieces


Gentle, slow decay.


I gave her everything I had


And she still asked me to stay.




My girl left a note.


Said: "You choose."


I chose wrong.


Or I chose to lose.




Fragmentation (Descent)




Bills-


Gone


Teeth-


Ache


No food / no sleep


Just shake


Just




Shake




I think I saw my brother


Or a cop


Or


My shadow




Laughed at the wall today


Wall didn't laugh back




Light's too loud


Skin too tight


Need-


Need-


NEED




Collapse (Disintegration)




Sk!nbugs buzzbuzz


Meltme


Mouthglass


Dreams leakin


Who I where i




D.. 


Doorr


Whos at the door


Shutitshutitshut


She's here


Again


I feel her crawl


Inside




Eyes leak


Tongue gone


Heart no thump thump


Just hush


Hush hush hush hush hush hush hush hush hush hush hush




I-




I








I...




I... 

I.










Once


I was a boy


Who ran too far.


Now I am a ghost


In my own scar.


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